A noble post, I hate being cheesy, at times, I'm forced to... Argghh Fuck.

I'm just gonna be boring in this post la okay? Gonna talk about the life of a teenager. Right now, I don't know if I'm enjoying my life as a teenager. I'm half enjoying it, half rueing it. At the tender age of 14-17, people change, and boy do they change. Everyone goes through that phase. This is the age when the sex hormones gets activated in your body, and you start to get attracted to the opposite sex. Once or twice these sex hormones might lack in you and you'd end up falling for your own sex, or maybe you might have overloaded on sex hormones, you end up liking both sexes. Alright that was just a bunch crap, actually I don't know how it works, I'm not studying phsycology =.=". This is the age when you start to care about your appearance, you start to act just to get accepted into a certain clique, and you fall in "love". Love is a pain in the arse seriously, I'm seriously admitting here, I'm a pussy when it comes to "love", I just can't handle it. Kern Yeung told me once, guys who are into music have deep emotions, ohh you don't know how right you are. LOL. When I fall for a girl I somehow force myself in way too deep and I struggle to climb up again. Actually this is all nonsense, love is crap. You know why? Because it brings you more pain than joy. For example in my case, I got dumped, three times, by three different girls, they all said they cared for me bla bla bla.... and the crap goes on, you can imagine how hard it is right? Even thinking about it makes me go crazy lah okay?

What I'm trying to say is that, at this age, it's normal for all of this to happen, but just don't let this shit ruin your life. Besides, this ain't gonna lead you anywhere in life, you might get the preetiest girl in town as your so called "girlfriend", and you might still end up picking up garbage at the back of my house in ten years time, and that girl works as a sex slave for me =)

That's why I chose to keep a distance from you. I don't want all of this to get in my way. I wanna be a partime rockstar and a plastic surgeon la okay? =D I don't wanna flop my SPM! Third time, and that's it, I've had enough. I'm not gonna get into this shit anymore. Talked to you for the last time today, conversations would be few and far in between from now on. Maybe one day when things are better for me I'd come back, but I'd doubt it, chances are paper thin. For you it might be easy to be "friends", for me it's hard. So yeahhh, sorrayyyyy =) Just take care, tho' she doesn't love me, I love her, that cute lil' girl who wears blue to school =)(Ehh, it rhymes!) Fuck I sound cheesy, fuck fuck fuck.....

P/S : Serlin , you advised me the other day and now look at what's happening to you!
Arggh! Concentrate on your studies! Don't bother much about this shit. ASEAN
scholarships dear!

Back To Me

This is a really really sad song by AAR. Sad lyrics too. This song would not be released as a single, which basically means, it would not be played on radio =) It's off their new album, When the World Comes Down. Something about this song la, which makes it sound darn sad, I think its by the way he sings it. He doesn't really whine much in this song, but he just sounds........ sad? =( I feel you Tyson. Can't wait to see them tomorrow! =D



This isn't the official music video. It's not even a single =.="

Hey you, so you never really found your way,
Stay true, did you ever make it through today,
I know, that when I think about a day without you, that everyday's the same,
You wish that you could find someone but I'm the only one to blame,

Can't you see? I beg and plead.
Cause when your eyes light up the skies at night,
I know you're gonna find your way back to me.

No don't, don't you ever let a piece of me down,
Cause time won't, get back when I'm never around,
When we live between so many walls that I can barely breathe,
You say that you just want someone, but I'm the only one you need.

Happy birthday to :

LIM SER LIN !!!!!!



Born on : 23rd October 1993
It's gonna be two years now since I know you, just want you to know that you're really important! =) (I bet you'll be thinking that I'm trying to sweet talk right? Errmm, you are half right I guess? =D) Anyways, you left last year to Singapore sadly, leaving me behind! =( But I'm happy we've been able to keep in touch and not lose contact at all, and Singapore has made you hotter cause you're much more skinnier now! HAHAHAHAHA! Love you loads babe! Happy sweet 16th! =) Can't wait to see you again these holidays! =D

Let's sail away, find our own country,we'll build a house and beds out of palm trees,
Lets get away, let's push our lives aside.
I'll sport a smile, take in some colour, under the stars, I'll be your lover,
With no distractions, I'm gonna treat you right.
Well it seems like things are only getting better,
Well it seems that we can never catch a break.

Just keep a hold on me, don't let go, if you float away
Waited too long for a ship to come, don't you float away.

And if you like, some other time, I would like to introduce you to the finer things,
If we survived, get out alive, I'd like to say,
How beautiful I think you are. =)

LOL played firecrackers again just now. xD And my bro taught me how to drive a manual car. It was a failure =) Engine mati dunno how many times. LOL xP Oh yeah, I've been updating my blog way too often and I'm really really addicted to I wanna. It's not supposed to be this way. I usually get bored of a song after listening to it for two or three weeks. But this time the song just won't go outta my head. LOL. For those who have watched their new video, there's actually a storyline in there. LOL. The girl Tyson's in love with, presumably his ex, walks into his party with her boyfriend. Tyson gets sad and pissed at the same time. Then he takes out his LG phone (Swt) and browses through his pictures with her, smiles at them until the part which shows him fighting with her and he becomes sad again. LOL! The band's guitarist, Mike causes her boyfriend to get drunk, while the drummer Chris has his self-happy time outside. LOL, fast forward, Tyson sings I Wanna on stage, and she comes back to him. I'd be so glad if it happens for real, all I have to do is sing I wanna! HAHAHAHA! xD But too bad something like that is impossible to happen for real. LOL.

Bought firecrackers just now. HAHAHA darn fun weh. Poke inside cat's ass! awesomeshitzz!! Don't know what else crappy stuff we're gonna do this Friday night. HAHAHAHA.

My birthday was dull. LOL. It seemed like any other ordinary day except that I sms-ed throughout the day. The first to wish me was maha I guess, and it was by pure coincidence la. It all started when someone messaged divya telling her that I changed my number. Actually who they meant was, divya's transport lady who's name is also Jana. Swt, so Maha actually messaged that lady and started scolding her thinking it was me cause she thought I didn't inform her I changed my number. LOL LOL! So she was like messaging me telling me the story all the way up to 12 am and ended up being the first to wish and Miss Canny Lee Kern Yeung was the last to wish. xP I skipped school today... xD School is like dam fucked up these days la, might as well just stay at home right? Anyways the new official music video for I Wanna was released yesterday! 13th of October! HAHAHAA! Check it out, it's preety cool =)They were promoting LG kao kao! xD

Do you know what it feels like, loving someone, who's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know what it feels like, to be the last one, to know the lock for your door has changed?
Do you know how it feels? You don't know how it feels.

Meaningful lyrics =)

Fuck this song lah

See I don't, know why, I liked you so much, I gave you all, of my trust,
I told you, I loved you, now that's all down the drain, you put me through pain,
I wanna let you know how I feel,

Fuck what I said, it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack, fuck you you hoe, I dont want you back

You thought, you could, keep this shit from, you burnt bitch, I heard the story,
You played me, you even gave em' hand, now you're asking for me back,
You are just another act, look elsewhere cause you're done with me

You questioned, did I care? You can ask anyone, I even said you were my great one,
Now it's, over, but I do admit I'm sad, it hurts real bad, I can't sweat that cause I loved a hoe

Shit weh, I'm getting more and more obsessed with it already. I just need to get it out of my freaking mind!! Just for these next few weeks at least!! ARghhhh... shit shit shit!!! Someone please help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes I just post up stuffs in my blog to let go what I feel, only to delete it after a few minutes. LOL! So don't be surprised if you see some stupid weird post which got deleted after a while. I don't want the world to know about my feelings all okay... LOL... Maybe I should create a private blog and rant there? LOL... Anyways, I heard this new song by Kris Allen, it's called Live Like We're Dying. My first thought on the song, it sounded a lot like The Script. So I wondered whether they wrote it for him or what since they're such a good band, and it turned out, that song actually BELONGS to them. LOL. It's an awesome song which carries a heavy meaning with it la. It seems that The Script recorded the song but they didn't release it as a single, it's not even on their regular album. So Kris Allen heard it and decided to actually buy it off them. How cool. LOL.

Hakikatnya rindu yang mendalam,
Jalan ini kan membantu, hari esok siapa yang tahu?
Kata ibu, dengar sahaja, cerita hanya kita berdua.

Ku amat merinduikan mu,
Ingin ku ulang ke masa dulu =(

Arghhh dam sad la, my comp sent to repair, and there's a high possibility I might lose everything in it. My songs! T.T The songs I've donwloaded are like my most important assets okay? Sigh, I've lost so many things before, but I can't lose my songs! There are nearly 2000 songs in my pc! Fuck la, seriously, fuck everything! Oh and I tried studying today, LOL! Not that succesful though, but I fail to concentrate, to many things occupy my head. SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!! T.T